It will all be worth it

That’s what I keep telling myself as I’m plodding through the day of kids fighting with each other, cyberschool frustrations, toddler temper tantrums and meeting the needs of my children, the house and of my pregnant body all while my husband is on the road.

In a previous post, I mentioned how 2020 started out with multiple weeks of managing the home without my husband here due to travel. Its funny how we’re starting 2021 the same way. The difference is the end is in sight and it won’t be due to Covid this time.

His new job is allowing us to relocate closer so he can go to work and be home every evening and even work from a home a couple days a week. It was a hard decision to leave family and move two hours away but thinking about it now and explaining to family two hours really isn’t that far and the drive isn’t bad at all.

Many don’t understand that this travel life has been our lives for almost two full years. Our kids talk to Daddy via video call through the week and see him mostly on the weekends.

I admit they’re not getting the best of Mommy either. I’m drained trying to keep up with everything and I have my good days and my ugly. The evenings after I lay them to bed are often filled with mom guilt that I didn’t do enough with them that day. I’m the mean Mommy who makes them do school work instead of play all day. I lose my temper after my toddler stands at the gate asking me for muffins that we don’t have every 5 seconds while I’m cooking dinner. He’s in a stage now that when I tell him to wait, hold on or plain no he freaks out followed by at least 20 good minutes of crying. He’s at such a fun stage between terrible twos and the threenager!

I’m excited to have my husband home again. Our home is under contract and our offer was accepted on our new home. By mid-March we will be together with no more travel. We’re gonna have a bigger house and soon a bigger vehicle to accommodate our 5 children.

A bigger house has been way over due. When I say my house now is overrun by toys, that is a major understatement. I mean there is zero square footage available for toys. My last child’s birthday gifts from early January are kept in the living room because the bedrooms are at max capacity. I’m excited the kids will have more space. With a shared boys bedroom there’s not enough space to put one track together! One of the first things I plan to do is make a giant vtech track in our new playroom for all the kids to enjoy and leave it up for days because we can.

Not to mention my nesting stage is very hard to manage when all I want to do is prepare our new home for our family and our newest babies. The pinterest boards and online shopping carts are filling up with all my ideas!

So the countdown begins til our big move! It’s a lot of work, frustration, distance and complete exhaustion but it’ll all be worth it for our family.